Monday, February 23, 2015

Love.

Love is one of the most amazing things. It is the reason we are all here. 

To love others and to feel of their love. 

And to feel of the love of our Heavenly Father. 

I have been seriously blessed lately with an increased recognition of the love that my Heavenly Father has for me. It has been one of the greatest blessings I could have ever asked for. And I hope each and every one of you have felt that love sometime in your life.

Now in addition to that love from God I have been feeling all sorts of other love. 

I have been feeling love from my family and all their help in planning this wedding. I have been feeling the love of my friends who are serious gems. 

And don't even get me started on the love I feel from the one and only Spencer Lee Whitmore.

Talk about a winner.

He legitimately treats me like I am the most amazing person he has ever encountered. He is constantly surprising me and making me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. Last night he told me I was prettier than Jessica Chastain which is obviously not true but the fact that he said it was impressive. He's the best person I know and I am lucky that he is mine. But this is getting way way way too mushy and gross. So I will stop assaulting your eyes with tales of my blissfully engaged life. 

It is my honest and sincere wish that everyone gets to experience the kind of love that I am currently experiencing. Not just the romantic love. All of the different kinds of love. 

Everyone deserves love. Everyone is worthy of love.

Don't you ever doubt that. 

Love love love.

That's really all I care about right now. And if you feel like you need some love let me know. I have plenty and I am dying to share it!


Thursday, February 19, 2015

Lent.

Ok, so I am obviously not Catholic and I have always thought it was weird when people who were not Catholic participated in Lent. But I am going to do it. And yes I am aware that Lent started yesterday...sorry...

I am not going to complain for 40 days. 

I am in the best time of my life. I am planning my wedding (which is going to be wonderful by the way). I am studying things I am really interested in at school. This is the last time I am going to live at home. And I am in love with the best guy ever. 

So why on earth am I always complaining???

I am seriously such a debbie downer all the time. And that needs to stop.

I have such a good life and I am really happy right now. There is no reason for me to be complaining all the time. I am only making my own life harder. 

So here we go. No more complaining. And if anyone is giving up anything for Lent let me know. 

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Engagement.

Let me just start out by saying that Spencer did such a good job. I seriously texted him a few days ago and asked if we could get engaged again because it was the most perfect moment ever. And now I am going to go into way more detail than anyone cares to know.

He got the ring a week before he proposed and I knew that he had it but I was babysitting and proposing while I was babysitting was not the most appealing thing ever. 

So after I finished babysitting we had plans to go out to dinner Saturday night and Saturday afternoon he texted me and told me that his friends Matt and Lauren wanted us to come over after dinner because they were going out to dinner with Matt's parents. I was actually like mad and disappointed because I was hoping he would propose that night but if we were going to see friends then he wasn't going to propose. 

Ugh!

So we tried to go to dinner at Porcupine Grill but the wait was too long so we ended up going to dinner at Normandie. Dinner was fairly uneventuful except now looking back it was funny that we had a whole conversation about how Matt and Lauren always go out with their parents for dinner (which they do) when really it was all a ruse. But a well thought out ruse because he even had Matt texting him about coming over in case I happened to see his phone. What a smart guy!

So after dinner Spencer went to the bathroom and I texted my friend Sarah telling her that I was pretty sure he wasn't going to propose that night. He was doing a really good job at acting totally normal and I seriously had no idea.

Then we got in the car and started driving towards their house but then he pulled into the parking lot of the Holladay City Office building and I knew something was up. 

We got out of the car and started walking towards the gazebo in the back of the building. One time when we first started dating Spencer had joke proposed to me there so it had some meaning for us. When we walked around the corner there as this poster waiting for us. I was dying. It was so perfect and way more than I was expecting.


So we stood in front of the poster for a minute and I was super super nervous and excited. He started off by saying "I'm sure you're aware of why I wished you to come here" and I thought that was way weird so I was like "why you wish? yeah I am pretty sure I know." But of course I was ruining everything by talking cause he kept going and said

"Because it would make me happier than anything, too happy really, if you would agree to what I wish. And stay with me. And marry me."

Now you all might be thinking, ok weird. But those are the lines from the engagement scene in The Young Victoria which happens to be my favorite movie ever and after a minute I knew exactly what it was from. 

At that point I essentially melted into a puddle of happiness when he says a few more things and gets down on a knee and asked me to marry him. 

I am pretty sure I said yes at some point but neither of us remember the exact details of what happened. We were just too excited. And honestly I didn't even care about him putting the ring on my finger. I was just too happy to be engaged. 

It was seriously perfect and wonderful and everything good. It was even better when he told me that Andrew and Laurel were hiding and taking some pictures for us. 

And things got even better when he gave me this sweatshirt.


It was the most wonderful, amazing, lovely, and perfect for me way to propose. I am so so so happy and I wish I could relive that moment a hundred times.


Monday, February 2, 2015

Finally!!!

I will get around to posting about our engagement later but first I just have to say this. 

WE ARE GETTING MARRIED!!!!


 You don't know how good it feels for me to be able to tell everyone that!

It was so so impossible to keep it a secret and we have been seriously planning our wedding for like a month!

We booked the temple on January 6th, I bought a dress on the 9th, he bought his suit on the 17th. and throughout the whole month we have been looking at venues, emailing caterers, picking photographers, looking at flowers, and trying to pick out bridal party outfits. 

It has been super fun but it never seemed real because I didn't have this perfect, beautiful, sparkly ring on my finger.


We didn't want to tell anyone that didn't NEED to know until we were officially engaged. So I am super sorry if you are offended that I didn't tell you sooner but believe me, it was nearly impossible for me to keep my mouth shut. 

But now I can tell you all that we are getting married and we are so excited. I put a countdown app on my phone as soon as we had kind of decided on a date (which was sometime in December) and these next 100 days are going to be the longest of my life. 

I can not wait until I get to be sealed to Spencer for time and all eternity! 

Now lets just hope I can put together a decent wedding because I really have no idea what I am doing and help would be super appreciated!