Tuesday, May 31, 2011

For Good.

(Warning: this post is going to be extremely long and rambling so if you don't have the time and/or don't care about reading a super long post, don't start reading it)

I have now said goodbye to two of my best friends for two years. My heart hurts just saying those words.  These boys are two of the most wonderful human beings on this planet and I am so grateful that I got to be friends with them. They will be fabulous missionaries. But the whole idea of sending 19 year old boys off on missions just shows that us Mormons are crazy folk. I do not know of anywhere besides Utah where it is seems normal for a 19 year old boy to postpone college and many other things to leave his family and go to a random place in the world and try to spread the Gospel for two years.  Such a weird concept...but I know that is divinely inspired and is so beneficial to those boys and the world in general.

I read someone facebook status recently that said "Music is what feelings sound like" (who knew such wise words could come from facebook?) and right now I agree with the quote 1000% (yes that extra 0 was added on purpose).  While driving home from bidding my cousin adieu and bawling my eyes out the song "For Good" from Wicked came on my ipod (the Glee version of course) the words were brilliant and only added to the tears.

 I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

 It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

 Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

I have cut out some of the words because no one wants to read the whole song when they can just listen to it here! And the RED words are the ones that really set me over the edge.

This song perfectly described the emotions I was feeling.  Both of those amazing young men have made my life so much better and they have changed me...but only in good ways.

The next lovely song that came on my ipod was "Mountain and the Sea" by Ingrid Michaelson. Now I always love me some Ingrid but this was yet again the perfect song.

But then one day you'll go away, but I will too
But until then, oh my darling friend, well I will hold
Yes I will hold, yes I will hold
Yes I will hold on to you
Oh Ingrid! Why must your lyrics be so inspiring. She is almost as good as Kate Nash when it comes to writing songs that fit my every mood.

Now onto the last song that fits me. "The world spins madly on" by The Weepies.  If you have not heard of the Weepies shame on you. They are fabulous.

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.

The world is spinning madly on and yet I don't want it to keep going. I want everything to stay just like it always has been.   I want to keep those boys here with me.  And I know that is totally selfish and I don't really want them to stay but if I could just have a bit more time.

Good luck Elder Anderson and Elder Turner.  You both have some wonderful adventures waiting for you.  I already miss you dearly and will be here patiently waiting for your triumphant returns.

Here is a picture of those wonderful boys...and
I wish that was me in the middle but it is
the lovely Cheyenne

Monday, May 30, 2011


I LOVE Sundays. They are fabulous. I have attended farewells the past two weeks and all of my speakers have been wonderful (shout out to Taft, Wes, and Michelle!!!). And although I hate farewells and goodbyes I am beyond excited for these three to begin their new adventures.

I also get to spend time with my darling little sister. She is so fun! Yesterday we made funfetti cupcakes. Maisie is OBSESSED with making cupcakes and asks for us to make them everyday, so today I gave in and made some with her. 
Our lovely cupcakes with homemade frosting
(thanks dad)

Maisie tells me often that "her favorite color is
chocolate" and I think that is evidenced
well in this picture...
I got a little crazy with my cupcake and put cow sprinkles on it.
I also love Sundays because I get to spend time with my extended family. I went over to my cousins house (because he is leaving on his mission soon so I want to spend every possible minute with him) and boy, those kids are hilarious.  First off, I didn't think my cousin Emi ever really talked but she was on one last night.  She kept calling people hags, which is such a funny thing to call people. She also went on like a million tangents that no one understood. And then the highlight of the night was when Taft layed in her bed with a cupcake. She did not like that at all and started yelling incoherent things but the one sentence I did manage to understand was...."no cupcakes in mu bed!!!!! get out you hedgehog!!!!!!" I almost died laughing. She is really funny when she actually speaks.

I also watched The Best Two Years, why is that the best movie ever. I think it is so hilarious and I sincerely hope that missions are actually like that. Taft could quote like every other line which made it about ten times better.  Overall it was a fantastic Sunday and I look forward to many more great summer Sundays.

Losing...my mind.

So I have to admit that I am a fairly unorganized person, but lately it has gotten out of hand.  I keep losing EVERYTHING...well actually only important things.  In the past like 3 days I have lost a letter from one of my best friends that will be in Honduras for 2 years, a ring I bought while I was in India, the itinerary for my trip to Zambia, and while I was at my cousin's house I lost my car keys for a solid hour. Luckily I was able to find the ring and the keys but the all important thing is that letter and I can't seem to find it anywhere. This is killing me!!! So if anyone happens to see a letter from Honduras addressed to me, if you could just send it right over to me that would be lovely and make my life quite a bit better. Oh and I supposed I should find that itinerary somewhere.....

Saturday, May 28, 2011

One Week.

One week until I embark on the adventure of a lifetime....i probably shouldn't say that since I have already had one adventure of a lifetime and I hope to have many more...so one week until i embark on one of the HUGE adventures in my lifetime.  I am going to Zambia!!! I am so excited butI am also beyond nervous. You figure that I would be more prepared since I only have one week left but I feel like I haven't ever been less prepared than I am now.  I haven't even thought about packing yet, I don't have my malaria medicine, and I have yet to do about a hundred other things I have to do. This week should be fairly exciting and busy.

I am going with an organization called Mothers Without Borders.  They have a school there and I am so excited to be able to spend two weeks with these children and get to know them.  I can't wait!!!

I don't know very much about Zambia but I am excited to learn. 

Zambia is the red one...in case the wasn't obvious.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Bubble Bazinga.

I hate to put this out in the world because I know that atleast one person that reads this will start playing bubble bazinga and it will ruin their life but I must.
Bubble Bazinga is the best/worst game ever known to man. It is so fun and I absolutely love it but yet it is addictting and has taken over my life. I always have a bubble bazinga tab open on my computer no matter what I am doing. Like right now I have my blog open, facebook, and bubble bazinga. I can not even watch shows on hulu without playing bubble bazinga. I am not even playing it but it has to remain open so that I can start playing at a moments notice.  Like the wise and all knowing ke$ha once said "maybe I need some rehab, or maybe just need some sleep. I've got a sick obsession I'm seeing it in my dreams." Oh Ke$ha, wou always know just what to say.

This is just a warning to everyone, DO NOT play bubble bazinga even though it sounds fantastic and wonderful. It will only cause you problems in life.  (although it will make you super good at multitasking...)

That is my public service annoucement for the day.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

"Fro Yo...over it"

Sometimes I want frozen yogurt. So then i think about where I will go to get said frozen yogurt. I could go to yogurt stop, spoon me, top it, red mango, frogurt, or a multitude of other places.  And by the time I think of all the possibilites I am overwhelmed and no longer want frozen yogurt.  These shops are ruining their own business. So now I am over fro yo.  It is no longer worth it to stress about where to go or what flavor to get.  Too many choices so I will make none. No more frozen yogurt for this girl. And I don't even feel bad about it.

And if anyone can name the quote from the title of this post then we can be best friends forever...cause everyone wants to be my best friend.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Bittersweet (Part 2).

Today was two of my best friend's mission farewells.  Luckily they aren't leaving until June 1st so i have about 10 days left with them.  Having two farewells in one day is too much emotion for me.  I can not imagine the next two years without those guys.  They are two of the funniest people I have ever met. They can make me laugh about almost anything. And I know that if I ever really needed someone they would be there in a heartbeat. They are fantastic guys and I am so glad that I was lucky enough to meet them and become friends with them.
Pretty classic example of us. Me trying to say something (most likely
very important and earth changing), Wesley doing something interesting,
and taft just making a cute face.
I don't know how I will be able to get through the next two years without them. I talk to both of them on an almost daily basis and not being able to be in constant contact with them will definitely be hard for me to adjust to.  Although I will miss them terribly everyday I know that they are doing the right thing by choosing to go on missions and help to bring people to the Gospel. They are wonderful examples to me and I am so proud of them for making this decision.

Me and Taft when we were little. Oh and Porter...
Also beware because this is not the last that I will post about these guys. Neither of them will let me make them a mission blog so there will be plenty of updates from their missions...since I know you are all dying to hear more about them.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Small Case of Bieber Fever.

So I have never been a big Justin Bieber fan. Like I have listened to his music but he was never my favorite ever and he most likely won't ever be. But my sister rented "Never Say Never" (which should be called the Justin Bieber movie because no one calls it by his real name) and I decided I might as well watch it.  So here I am sitting in my basement being super cool and watching a movie about justin bieber. And it isn't the worst movie ever. Right now there is a little bit of drama because Justin Bieber has to postpone one of his shows. Oh goodness such a dilemma! Well I hope this fever passes soon because I refuse to let this develop into a full blown illness....bad news bears

This is probably the best picture I have ever seen of Justin Bieber

Monday, May 16, 2011


I got to spend some of tonight with my good friend David. He is leaving for his mission in two days. He is going to Thailand and I am so excited for him! He is going to be a great missionary and I can not wait to hear all about his wonderful experiences. He is one of the funniest people I have ever met and the following quotes will mean nothing to anyone else but I just needed to document them.

"being a grown up means going to the Saturday night session of Stake Conference"
"She must have slipped him some love potion from Romilda"
"You better watch out or I will go all Cee-Lo on you"

David is so wonderful and I will miss his hilarious quotes like every day and I will miss just chatting on the phone like we do quite often.  He is such a great guy. Good luck Elder Banta!!!

Tonight I also got to go to another missionary's house,  my good friend Austin's (I have mentioned him before).  I am going to Africa in less than three weeks (there will be a multitude of posts about this coming soon) and his family went to Africa about two years ago and I am dying to hear about their experiences to help calm my nerves.  They were so willing to tell me about everything and I was so grateful to hear from them.  I also got to see some pictures of Austin on his mission and I was so happy about that.

What a lovely day filled with lovely people.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Going insane.

So at the end of my last post I said that I was going to go and clean my room but of course I put that off and now I have actually starting to try and clean it. Little did I know that it would cause me to go insane. I am the type of person that can handle things being messy, but it gets to a certain point and I just start getting super stressed and can barely even function and my room has hit that point. Hence, I am blogging so that I can try to relax and stop the hyperventilating. Here are a few glorious pictures of my room.

In case you couldn't tell, that is a picture of my bed
covered in clothes and other various things that do not
belong there.
The inside of my closet....Lovely isn't it?
Dirty laundry basket (laundry is another thing on my to do list)
So I kind of feel like I am airing my dirty laundry (just in case it wasn't obvious, that was a pun to go along with the previous picture....) by posting these pictures of just how horrible my room looks right now. But I promise it never looks this bad except when I bring all my things home from college and try to stuff way too much stuff into my little room.

Well this blog post has successfully calmed me down and now I might be able to continue with the cleaning, although I can not promise how successful I will be...

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Poor Blog.

Who would have known that summer would cause me to blog less than I did during the school year? Not me. Well maybe it is because I don't have to constantly find things to distract me from doing homework. So the beginning of summer has been quite nice. I haven't had to do anything and it is lovely.

I did have to dog sit this little fellow.
Duncan! So Cute!!!
He is very cute but he is kind of a little trouble maker. But it was fun to play with him even though he thinks that if you are sitting down that means he has to be on your lap and most likely trying to lick your face.

Well I am off to unpack my room because despite the fact that I moved home last Saturday I still haven't unpacked anything and my room is a total mess. Hooray for me!

Thursday, May 5, 2011


So I know that three blog posts in one day is a little excessive but this one has to be posted. 

Letters are the best invention known to man. Seriously though, who doesn't love getting letters? They are absolutely fabulous and can make me happy for weeks. (If anyone ever wants to make my a happy girl sending me a letter would do the trick). They just make me smile and want to jump for joy. And I think that most of this happiness comes because the only letters I get are from one of my bestest friends and letters are the only way we can communicate right now, but still. So everyone should go and send a letter to someone they love because it will probably make their day!

The End?

Why does the end of things always have to be the best? The end of senior year was AMAZING and I never wanted to graduate. The end of summer was FABULOUS and I had such wonderful friends...that all left me to go to that school down south (not an Ohio state reference if anyone even knows what I am talking about?) The time just before Austin went on his mission was probably my favorite time ever. And now, the end of the school year has been just FANTASTIC. Why does the world think it is acceptable to do this to me?!? I do NOT approve. Eventually I will be happy that I had such great times to remember things by but for now I am just sad that those things ended even if it was on a high note. 

In other news, I am DONE with finals!!! Being done with one year of college seems surreal to me. I still feel like I am in 7th grade. Hopefully soon I will accept that I am partially an adult. Finishing finals can only mean one thing...packing. I feel like I moving a lot more stuff out then I moved in, if that is even possible.  Here is a great little glimpse into the packing monsters that me and Avery have become.

If it is possible, it looks a lot less messy than it
actually is. AKA it is more messy than it looks.
Eventually we will finish and our room will look sad like Paige and Emilia's does. (I just tried to go take a picture of their sad empty room only to discover that the door was locked. So mean!) I can't believe that this year is over and that people are moving or have moved home. I am going to miss all the people in this house so much. They are all wonderful and can make me laugh harder than most everyone else. Such a classy group of people!!!

Poulson House 2010-11
 "Words are Hard"


Avery, Rebecca, and I went to park city to go outlet shopping but before we had to take Avery's tires to her friends house. (I know it sounds really weird that we had to take her tires somewhere, wouldn't a person need their tires?) So that was a spectacle in itself because me and Becca both struggle to move tires so we ended up rolling them which was hilarious. we also saw these goats...

Cute nice brown goat

Big mean white goat
The white goat was suppppper mean to the little brown one.  When the brown one tried to get up on the gate the white one tried to stab it with its horn...luckily it has a kinda messed up horn so the brown one was unharmed.  Becca petted the white one and it tried to bite her! (well maybe it was trying to lick her but i will just assume it was going to bite her face off.) The goats were definitely one of the highlights of the day besides the general hilarity that happens whenever any amount of time is spent with Becca and Avery.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Royal Wedding Recap.

As I have previously stated, I am obsessed with the royal wedding and it lived up to all my expectations!!! It was fabulous. Her dress was BEAUTIFUL and William looked so handsome and you could really tell that he loved her. And can we please discuss prince harry because he is like the epitomy of classiness. LOVE him. The ceremony was really nice, although it was a tad long for my taste so therefore I have the magic of dvr to skip over the boring parts. When they walked out onto the balcony I almost died. It was just perfect and iconic. I wish I was lucky enough to get to go to those amazing receptions but alas I am not.

 I do have to admit that I did not stay up all night so that I could see it live, but I did spend the vast majority of the next day watching all the footage I could possibly get my hands on. My brother asked me a few times why people were so obsessed with it and I got very defensive and he had to deal with my wrath for a little while. It was just like a fairy tale come true and I have a weird love for the royal family and I know far too much about them. Ask me anything about them and I will most likely be able to answer it...if I put as much time into studying as I did into researching the royal family I would definitely be the best student ever. I just love how classy and proper they are. People here are definitely not classy like they are. Double pinkys up to the Brits.

Cover of the People magazine that I
rushed out to buy monday morning

Oh and don't worry if these two posts did not give you all the information you wanted about my obsession with the royal wedding, I am positive there will be more in the future.


As I am preparing to move home for the summer I have started to get rid of things that I do not need and one thing that I am having a very difficult time throwing away are these little beauties

These are my first pair of Toms I have ever bought
I absolutely ADORE Toms! They are the most wonderful shoes on the planet. And that lovely picture demonstrates just how much I love them since those are totally worn out and have holes in them but I can not bear to get rid of them. I haven't worn them in months but I still don't think I could ever throw them away. For some strange reason they carry a lot of significance to me and I have no idea why, I just love them. I have gotten four other pairs since I got my first ones and they are pretty much the only shoes i wear. But despite having those four other pairs none of them can replace the first.

my four other pair of Toms
In case you don't know what Toms are you should look them up.  The are made by this great company that gives a pair of shoes to a child in need whenever you buy a pair (so that is how i justify buying canvas shoes for 45 dollars...) They are also super comfortable and wayyy cute. Everyone should buy at least one pair. I am sure you will love them. (one piece of advice is to try them on before you buy them and I always buy half a size smaller than I normally wear because they stretch.) You might even love them so much that you could never even imagine throwing them away even after they are past the point of no return...and if that happens be sure to tell me so that I wont feel quite as weird about wanting to keep mine forever.

Monday, May 2, 2011


Enchanted is such a wonderful movie in case anyone was wondering. Everyone should watch it just to remind themselves how fantastic it is. How can you not love a movie that features cute Amy Adams walking around speaking in a sing song voice and singing all the time?