Thursday, December 14, 2017

Motherhood.

Ok lets get real.

 Being a mom is pretty good. 



George is the cutest baby and he really is pretty much an angel (like he was teething a few days this week and I literally didn't even know. That is how good he is.) and he's so fun and makes us so happy but there are some serious drawbacks to this whole motherhood thing.

(Disclaimer: I would not give up being a mom for any of these things to change but sometimes I just need to complain a little)

- Sleep. George is a bad sleeper. Honestly I have felt a lot of shame over the fact that he is a bad sleeper. Somehow every time I talk to someone about it they make me feel like I am a bad mother because he still wakes up every 2 hours. I have done everything I know to try to get him to sleep. At least now he puts himself to sleep but he still wakes up a lot and it is taking a toll. So I sincerely apologize if I am a little snippy these days but not sleeping for 5 months does that to a person.

- Post partum hair loss: This is the main reason I wanted to write this post because it is seriously the worst thing about having a baby. For the past 3 months my hair has been falling out in clumps. I almost cry every time I take a shower because there is so much hair, I haven't brushed my hair in about 4 weeks because too much falls out, and I am pretty sure I have at least 2 dreadlocks forming due to my lack of brushing. I seriously do not understand how I am not completely bald yet and in all honesty, I have a few bald spots. People keep telling me that it will grow back but I have been growing my hair out since I was a junior in high school. I don't really have 8 more years to grow my hair back especially if I am going to have this much loss after each baby. And if people don't tell me that it will grow back then they tell me that their hair never really fell out. So basically everyone talking about their hair is the worst. 

- Getting dressed. Having a baby is rough on your body. Once you have the baby everything is just different. I lost most of the weight I gained pretty quick but everything is just all differently sized than it was before. I have two pairs of pants that fit me (one of them is leggings so if you don't count leggings then I only have one pair of pants) and constantly trying to decide if something is nursing friendly is the worst. Basically getting dressed is the worst part of my day.

- Breastfeeding: Breastfeeding is hard. And unlike apparently everyone else on the earth, I don't love it.  I am constantly thinking about if I am drinking enough water to be able to produce enough milk. I am always scouting out where I can feed him next. And he is getting so distracted lately that it just makes everything harder. I am so grateful that I am able to breastfeed him and give him exactly what his body needs to grow best but it is hard. 

There you have it. A really honest and pretty embarrassing post about the realities of being a mom. It really is wonderful and I love George so much but sometimes when your hair is falling out and you only slept 6 hours in 1.5 hour increments the night before life just seems a little rough. 


But now you will have to excuse me because I am off to attempt to snuggle a crazy 4 month old that thinks he is big enough to start sitting up an getting teeth. 

Saturday, November 25, 2017

4 months.

George at 4 months:



- Has discovered his toes and will not let go of them. He was getting really close to rolling over but now that he is always holding on to his toes I think he will never roll over. 

- Is getting much better at tummy time. He doesn't scream the second we put him down and he seems to be enjoying it a little bit

- Is constantly scratching himself. We cut his nails all the time but yet his poor little head is still covered in little scratches.

- Speaking of abusing himself, any time we lay him down he will use his right arm and punch himself in the stomach. It makes me so mad but he really won't stop. 

- Loves to watch us eat food. I am hoping he will just have breastmilk until he is 6 months old but he is so obsessed with food that I don't think we will last that long

- Is still a bad sleeper. We have just accepted that we will be waking up every 2 hours of the night for the rest of our lives.

- Loves to be naked and screams when we have to get him dressed. 

- Puts any and everything into his mouth

- Is OBSESSED with the cup I got from the hospital. If he sees it in a room he will not look away from it and if he is crying and he sees the cup he instantly stops.

- Is a pretty happy little guy but he will let you know when he doesn't like what you are doing or when he wants something











Wednesday, October 25, 2017

3 months.

George at 3 months: 


- Is really learning how to use his little voice. He is making a crazy new noise every day.

- Is sleeping but not as well as he used to. He is getting up about 2 times a night but a few nights this month he got up about every hour and we were not feeling great about that.

- Is trying so hard to roll over. Since he did it that one time he hasn't done it again but he love to put all his limbs in the air and then tip over sideways and try to roll. I am ok that he hasn't done it yet. Once he is mobile my life will get much harder.

- Is getting the most delicious little fat rolls.

- Is so smiley and is laughing way more. He almost always wakes up with a smile and has the most amazing little laugh

- Really loves football. If he is upset and football is on tv he instantly calms down. And he doesn't like to watch all tv it literally only works with football.

- Is doing the cutest little thing where he puts his arms straight out in front of him. His arms get so stiff and he just holds them there. It is so funny. You can see it in one of the pictures. 

- Is definitely a baby now and not so much a newborn. He is so alert and constantly looking around. Its like you can almost see him learning every day








Friday, October 20, 2017

Family Pictures!

Guys, I can not even tell you how in love with these pictures I am! It is so crazy to me that we have our own little family that we can take our very own pictures. After seeing these I want to get pictures taken like every other day. They turned out so fabulous and I can not thank our photographer enough! Mari is so amazing and got some great shots of George even though he was being a little grumpy despite my seemingly perfect planning haha.



 


   
 




 



Can you even handle this one?!?!? (The one above). It makes me cry because it is so precious!!!



 I seriously can not recommend Mari enough. She was so amazing and so good with George.
Love love love!

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Photoshoot (round 2)

As I said in this post, I am just so obsessed with this little boy I just can't help but take pictures of him!